Why is it that when you buy a pack of hair scrunchies they seem so much? as if you have a life time supply of them. However in reality you always manage to loose all of them eventually, except that last one.
That last hair scrunchie you make sure you always have on you. And why you ask? i believe us girls do so because we know that, that one hair scrunchie we are relying onto so much therefore we do our best to keep it. Well i guess i thought i had a "life time supply" of hair scrunchies when it came to a lot of things in my life.For one school, i honestly thought i had so much time to get those grades up and study for those tests. Unfortunately my mind just wasn't there.
Although i was rudely awaken with reality when my mother kicked me out of my own house. i had just lost that last hair scrunchie, and i did not know what to do with my life. But shortly after that i had realized that in the very end to achieve what i yearned for in my life, for my future. i had to do it by myself and work for it. nothing was going to come on a silver platter fsor me anymore.Mommy and Daddy couldn't just control me so easily and force me what they wanted to do.
I had my own perception of life. when i figured out that this is how it really i not having a home was a big wake up call. I no longer desired to repeat past events and constantly be a let down to my parents, and more importantly myself. Because my parents will think what they want of me and i cannot do anything to change that. However self pride is something i find more rewarding than any mom, dad, brother, sister or cousin could ever make me feel.
Because knowing that you are improving yourself to achieve what you want in life is probably one of the best feelings i have ever felt in a long while. So i actually ended up finding that last hair scrunchie i had thought i lost. i never really lost it at all. It was always there, i just didn't know. One decision I made last year that was one of the biggest and greatest influences on me was joining the track team. that track team was like my family, we all supported each other not matter what and we pushed each other to become better each and everyday out there on that track, wether it was 100 degrees or down pouring.
And that sense of being apart of something that mattered was terrifyingly new to me, which i enjoyed. Because my family, how we acted towards each other was nothing like this team at all. My family and I have been through so much together or apart i should say. All the lies Ive been fed, the scars ands wounds that Ive handed with, dealing and suffering in this house.
It was just a little too much for a girl to handle at my age i guess. However all of these obstacles only made stronger and molded me into the young lady i am today, writing this to you, the college of my dreams that i would love to attend.So i wont be buying a new set of hair scrunchies this last year of high school, I only have one right now. This is what I am relying on.
I know that I can accomplish great things, Especially in your psychology program. Because I want to be the one to be able to help and support those who feel that they haven't. Knowing that i can at least attempt to make any human being feel like they matter or just help them in any way, showing them that there is this thing called self worth. That will make any obstacle that i have had or will have to overcome that much more valuable.
